Personal

Gender, sex, relationships, trauma, mental health, intimate struggles and celebrations. Some of this writing is 18+ only, some will have content warnings.

Candel’s in The getto

I woke up at 4:45am to catch the public transit to the airport. The goal: arrive in Manhattan in time to sing my Zurich Opera Studio audition at noon, and hop on the 1:30pm bus back to Montreal. Mission: accomplished; and what fun!I think I could get used to whirlwind...

What singing is all about for me

I want to share with you something that re-awoke in me the very essence of singing and what it means to be a good singer. This performance that I am showing you may or may not be technically sound, it may or may not have contained good diction or perfect dramatic...

Please support the CBC

CBC Radio is the reason why I love classical music, and why I initially came to love Canada, my country. Our government is trying to 'get out of the business of broadcasting'. Please take a moment to sign this petition in support of the...

Indulging my singer sense of humor…

This is a very funny video about a typical conversation between a singer and your average person, from the point of view of the singer. Sound...

How can I make a difference?

There is so much suffering, poverty, and injustice in this world. Some of us see it more often than others. I almost never see it. Sometimes, when I am panicking about my future, when I am worrying that even if I decided to give up singing, I wouldn't have any way to...

Waiting for those audition results

I am not a patient person. For those of you that know me, this might even seem like an understatement. Even though I think I am willing to work toward my goals, waiting for results still maddens me.However, I think I am finally learning to enjoy the process. Time in...

Once in a while, you just need to dream…

What I would want if I had absolutely no limitations, followed by the percent chance of it happening within 2 years. -Be able to sing a B three octaves above middle C. (85%) -Bigger lung capacity so I could sing any length of phrase without difficulty. (10%)-No fear...

Apologizing

A colleague of mine recently initiated a wonderful peer-evaluating performance group. We meet every week and sing new repertoire in front of a small audience of friends, who do not judge, but gives constructive comments about the performance. There is no one present...

The best I’ve ever sung in NYC

I am convinced: the best way to travel is by train. It is the greenest, safest, most scenic and most relaxing mode of transportation, and in my case, the cheapest and also the longest. The train ride from Montreal to NYC is 11 hours long, but the seats are much more...

Making Music

Something special happened today.Mid-afternoon, I had my voice lesson. While singing the Presentation of the Rose in Strauss' Rosenkavalier, I totally lost hold of everything that I normally try to control or hold onto - my breath, the positioning of my body, my tone...

End of the Beginning

I was five years old when I started Kindergarten. I remember my main goal in kindergarten was to be allowed to go to speech therapy with the other kids. I also wanted a puppy. My wants changed gradually throughout my school years, and I would like to say that they got...

An Actor’s Vow

By Elia Kazan I will take my rightful place on the stage And I will be myself. I am not a cosmic orphan, I have no reason to be timid. I will respond as I feel; awkwardly, vulgarly, But respond. I will have my throat open. I will have my heart open. I will be...

Tracy

What a summer this has been! Of course, I started the summer with the intention of learning Figaro, as well as all of the soprano arias in the Bach passions, as well as a whole chunk of other arias and art song. Of course, I was over-ambitious and under-endowed with...

From Wordsworth ‘Preface to Lyrical Ballads’

Wordsworth hits the nail on the head when he writes about the effect of modern society on the natural beauty of the human mind, even though he was writing in the early 1800's. (Paragraphs mine) For the human mind is capable of being excited without the application of...

Funding

As you may or may not know, the ability to travel to sing for various conductors and directors is essential in the beginning of a singer's career. If no one hears me sing, in other words, it is virtually impossible to begin singing professionally! My worry has been...

Discipline

It is hard to live a balanced life when you are a singer, and even more so as a student. First of all, you have to make sure to get at least 8 hours of sleep every night. In the morning and between rehearsals and courses throughout the day, you need to be efficient,...

Challenge

People want to work with people who are interesting and who stroke their own egos. People don't want to work with self-centred people who have limited life experiences.People want to work with people who do what they do easily and with limited outward hassle.People...

Meyers-Briggs Personality Test Results

ENFJExtraverted 67% Intuitive 38% Feeling 62%Judging 22%ENFJs are the benevolent 'pedagogues' of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others...