Peace

Published on February 4, 2011

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After my angst-ey previous post, I bet you are wondering, dear reader, how things went in Berlin!

Things went fabulously – everything that could have gone wrong went right, and everything that could have gone right went wrong. I did not get the contract with the Staatsoper, but after a little youtube research, I found out that they were looking for a voice that had a little more heft to it than mine. I also missed 2/3rds of the flights that I purchased, blowing my audition budget completely out of the water, but rebooking meant I got to spend the night in London with an old friend before heading back to Montreal. I met the curator of the Tacheles (possible concert connection there), and some amazing girls who are possible roommates for my imminent move to Berlin. I made phone calls in German and re-booked my flights in German.

Most of all, however, I finally felt at peace about my future. Instead of shooting straight to the top like some of my very talented friends are going to do, I think my tactic for success is going to be alot different. I am going to make the slow climb. My new tactic is this:

  • Be myself, no matter what.
  • Do things other than singing and embrace diversity in my life.
  • Make every day beautiful.
  • Accept the unknown future as an adventure instead of something to be feared.

I can have a career if I just stick to it, get to know more and more people and show them my good work ethic. However, I cannot have a career in Europe if I am not in Europe – therefore, even though I did not get a contract over there, I decided my next step is to make the move. Learn German, teach English and yoga, and sing sing sing for as many people as possible.

I’m ready!

Originally posted on McGill’s GradLife Blog.

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